You're still angry.....

You're still angry she said, my reply was "yes". Yes there's still fragments of anger, bitterness, and other bothersome feelings that are of a sensitive nature when chatting with close friends (operative word close friends I dont spill my heart anymore). One of my friends said, "if I didn't know that you came from a strong religious background I would think you were atheist" I replied, Atheist? Really? She went on to say "so do you believe in there being a God anymore"? I told her yes of course, but not like I use to. She pointed out that I seem to go out of my way to not use the word God, Jesus, but will use the word universe. I thought hummmm imagine that? I remember years ago, (1998-2005) while leading worship at NCCC, a very popular church at the time, I would make proclamations such as He's the God of all creation, God of all things, he is the Master of the Universe! The last one never went over well, but that was my belief he was the master because he is the universe. Actually it was a saying I took from one of my favorite childhood saturday morning cartoons, MASTERS OF THE UNIVERSE! You gotta say it LOUD , shoulders squared and back, chest out and eyes closed super tight to give it the echo reverb effect it demands! To me the voice over sounded like what God would sound like if he spoke out from the clouds, but eventually I stopped saying it in a church setting. In comparison to 5 years ago vs currently, my view of God, Heaven, Hell, the Bible and of course slew-foot himself, the devil is quite different to say it mildly. Am I going to elaborate on any of the aforementioned...nah at least not now. It's like defending my stand, my beliefs, which most of the time ends up falling into the abyss of who's right and who's wrong. For me, some things are not up for debate, let along worth debating. Gone are the days of advocating for my side being the right point of view. Ok I'm out, I leave you with this, my God self, my inner spirit is showing me fragments of yester years dating back to my childhood that I've yet to process out of my being to become the total person I was sent to the earth to be, God in an earth suit, posing as taylorhyll(smiling). "live your dream in realtime"~taylorhyll